Bettie Kaczynski:
I got friends on Facebook I got friends on Myspace
If only the real world wasn't such a lonely place
It's basically masturbating with this ersatz interface
How can you say you're really meeting someone
I'm chatting with eleanorrigby81
She won't even know me when we're done
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Poetry Post 232
Only Chance
I'm going to live my own life since I must die my own death
Because there is no more freedom after your last breathe
I can't live under constant scrutiny
Because now is the only chance for me
Living
I don't want to worry my life away
Worrying if I see another day
I want to live every moment
Like it was hellbent
The Suicide Note
What a dark life I live
With nothing left to give
There is no reason why
I shouldn't just die
I'm going to live my own life since I must die my own death
Because there is no more freedom after your last breathe
I can't live under constant scrutiny
Because now is the only chance for me
Living
I don't want to worry my life away
Worrying if I see another day
I want to live every moment
Like it was hellbent
The Suicide Note
What a dark life I live
With nothing left to give
There is no reason why
I shouldn't just die
Mrs Abbott
Bettie Kaczynski:
Mrs Abbott is my only friend
She's the only one I can comprehend
With compliments and faith she makes my confidence mend
If Only I could be with her during the better part of the day
To see her in some other context some other way
But if I can see her at school then there I'll stay
But on my computer I'll look for girls like her
Thirty with freckles, glasses and dark curly hair should be easy to search for
Something of a geek fetish and the good girl next door
Mrs Abbott is my only friend
She's the only one I can comprehend
With compliments and faith she makes my confidence mend
If Only I could be with her during the better part of the day
To see her in some other context some other way
But if I can see her at school then there I'll stay
But on my computer I'll look for girls like her
Thirty with freckles, glasses and dark curly hair should be easy to search for
Something of a geek fetish and the good girl next door
Poetry Post 231
The Note
One gloomy day I found a note addressed to me
I read the inside of a note
It said it was written by a girl name Mary
The note said that she loved me so and that I quote
I lived each day willingly with a smile in my heart
I got a note each day reassuring her love to me
I had everything planned from the start
I wished for the day I could be with her eternally
But then one day I got a note that I could not take
Written in the same handwriting signed Jane
Saying she wrote them all and the love I felt was fake
The news made me go insane
Now my life must go on
With this pain within me
But after dusk there can be dawn
Will I free this pain burning relentlessly
On The Rebound
There's a girl I found
While on the rebound
Who is a true friend
Right to the end
One who will spend her hours with me
We fit like a lock and key
But could this be just another illusion
Or a permanent solution
Dependable Love
Darling stay near me
I need you so dearly
How can you not tell clearly
I feel lost in space
And nothing is in place
Without your secure embrace
I need you like air
And like a friend you're always there
I hope you know much I care
For I'll always be there for you
Doing whatever you ask me to do
To let you know my appreciation's true
One gloomy day I found a note addressed to me
I read the inside of a note
It said it was written by a girl name Mary
The note said that she loved me so and that I quote
I lived each day willingly with a smile in my heart
I got a note each day reassuring her love to me
I had everything planned from the start
I wished for the day I could be with her eternally
But then one day I got a note that I could not take
Written in the same handwriting signed Jane
Saying she wrote them all and the love I felt was fake
The news made me go insane
Now my life must go on
With this pain within me
But after dusk there can be dawn
Will I free this pain burning relentlessly
On The Rebound
There's a girl I found
While on the rebound
Who is a true friend
Right to the end
One who will spend her hours with me
We fit like a lock and key
But could this be just another illusion
Or a permanent solution
Dependable Love
Darling stay near me
I need you so dearly
How can you not tell clearly
I feel lost in space
And nothing is in place
Without your secure embrace
I need you like air
And like a friend you're always there
I hope you know much I care
For I'll always be there for you
Doing whatever you ask me to do
To let you know my appreciation's true
Second Return
Bettie Kaczynski:
Returning to the seventh grade
To face all the enemies I've made
If I understood why I wouldn't be so afraid
I think its very clear
That I don't belong here
And they can tell by my fear
To pass the day along
I'll escape in a song
Till I'm back where I belong
Returning to the seventh grade
To face all the enemies I've made
If I understood why I wouldn't be so afraid
I think its very clear
That I don't belong here
And they can tell by my fear
To pass the day along
I'll escape in a song
Till I'm back where I belong
PP 230
Not Alive
Every night I stay up to five
Can't get to sleep till I know I'm alive
Blasting noise, blaring lights
Taking risks get into fights
Feel the pain
But no senses reach the brain
Until peace and quiet come in
Then I feel my life again
Drinking The Night Away
Alone in my room drinking the night away
Trapped in a hole never seeing the light of day
Addiction certainly has a strong grip
And it all started with a little sip
What can you do when your life slipped away
Death is just one sip away
My life is a pile of crap
I can't get out of the trap
I'll just have one more drink
Then I'll stop, I believe I can I think
This is my last try
Or I know I'll die
My Dark Shadow
There's a dark shadow over my soul
And each day it spins out of control
Depression settles upon me
And it grows so quickly
Haunting me like an illness
As my body lies in stillness
attacked by demons each day
Attacked each day in a worse way
Every night I stay up to five
Can't get to sleep till I know I'm alive
Blasting noise, blaring lights
Taking risks get into fights
Feel the pain
But no senses reach the brain
Until peace and quiet come in
Then I feel my life again
Drinking The Night Away
Alone in my room drinking the night away
Trapped in a hole never seeing the light of day
Addiction certainly has a strong grip
And it all started with a little sip
What can you do when your life slipped away
Death is just one sip away
My life is a pile of crap
I can't get out of the trap
I'll just have one more drink
Then I'll stop, I believe I can I think
This is my last try
Or I know I'll die
My Dark Shadow
There's a dark shadow over my soul
And each day it spins out of control
Depression settles upon me
And it grows so quickly
Haunting me like an illness
As my body lies in stillness
attacked by demons each day
Attacked each day in a worse way
Surrogate Connection
Bettie Kaczynski:
Is it wrong or is it alright
To fantasize through the lonely night?
Libido and conscience in a constant fight
All over a simple website
Should I waste my restraining might
To banish another delight?
But I know if my mom walked through the door
She'd say this isn't what my body was meant for
But then what is this desire calling from my core?
Why can't this be a means to an end
At least until I get a girlfriend?
If the model's willing then who do I offend?
If this falls short of perfection
It's beyond my capabilities of correction
Because real or surrogate this is my only connection
Is it wrong or is it alright
To fantasize through the lonely night?
Libido and conscience in a constant fight
All over a simple website
Should I waste my restraining might
To banish another delight?
But I know if my mom walked through the door
She'd say this isn't what my body was meant for
But then what is this desire calling from my core?
Why can't this be a means to an end
At least until I get a girlfriend?
If the model's willing then who do I offend?
If this falls short of perfection
It's beyond my capabilities of correction
Because real or surrogate this is my only connection
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