Poetry Post 329

Reading Empathy
Can you look right through me
And tell if I have empathy
Can you see my neurological wires
And see the roots of my desires
Any more than I can see through you
By the actions I can see you do
By the way you see how other people feel
To determine what you can get out of the deal
I only hope for reprocity and understanding
Never giving less than I am demanding

Questioning Faith
What is it to have true religion?
Is it relying on another for a decision?
Is faith something you're suppose to support
But cannot count on when you're hurt?
I know there is God and I know there is the Lord
But how am I helped compared to those who never heard
There is comfort in knowing what is Good and Right
But with so much beyond our strength its a losing fight
You may say its a sin to say the Lord forsook me
But if I still feel so defeated someone overlooked me

Unrewarding Drudgery
Every day is a hectic boring drudge
How can I not hold a grudge
What do I have to depend on
When all is done everyone's gone
I push and pull along throughout the day and night
Without comfort emotional or physical in my sight
Just a small bed to lay alone in
Waiting for the next day to start it all over again

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poetry 328

Unconfident Persistence
I want to feel the confidence of your love and affection
I want it to shield me for emotional protection
I'm confident I'm worth your consideration
All I need is confirmed validation
Because I could love you in more ways than others could show
I could love you in ways no one else could possibly know
Because what I lack in vain charm
Is protection from deceit and from harm
And I may be persistent
Where love is resistant
But I'm not arrogant in my expectations
Just loyal to my dedications
And a woman worthy of being a friend
Is worth the chance of romance to the bitter end

Wonderkid
Boy you really are the Wonderkid
And everyone's wondering exactly what you did
But no one will ever get to where the facts are hid
Because everybody's stuck in awe of the Wonderkid
And everyone who's not just gets the farewell bid
Making sure all the others just shut their lid
So the programmed masses can all heil the Wonderkid

Beauty Divine
Every time I hear your name
I turn into a beast only you can tame
And no other woman can make me feel the same
And I love that this addiction has no shame
Because you make me feel like a beautiful powerful man
When you show what I know that only I can do it like I can
And you feel like the star that you are when I say I'm your biggest fan
So don't take for granted this expression of obsession cause your the kind I can't find in any other woman

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Rejection Scars

Romance can be so unfair

When you have so much love to share

And you have so many ways of just being there

Helping someone with tender loving care

You can give loyal love and affection

Offer emotional support and protection

But without a mutual connection

Your heart gets scarred with rejection

Treasure Beyond The Barrier

I walk in this world alone as an alien

Foreign to the customs without neighbor or kin

No one to understand, to see who I am within

There's something in my exterior

That acts as a barrier

Hiding what I have to offer

I speak of walls as barriers not as though I wear a mask

Because I'm an open book answering any question you may ask

But finding a functioning relationship has been an unfulfilled task

November Nights

On November nights cold and damp

I wander alone as a tramp

Waiting to see

Whats to become of me

But find a frigid future bare

As I stare at the nothingness there

All I can do is just walk on

Pass all the opportunities gone

No flame or spark left of desire

As bitter winds choke out the fire

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Poetry Post 326

Heart Of Lust
I am selfish not one to trust
Deceived by my heart of lust
Don't trust me when I say I love you
I can't even tell you if it's true
And when their love is in doubt
It's just someone to do without

Sensual Warming
The warmth of your touch
Reminds me of how I miss you so much
The scent of your hair
Let's me know that I'm there
But I'm still caught by surprise
By the earnest love in your eyes
Your words of support take root deepened by your sincerity
Until your lips become the home I always needed them to be
Taking you in by every sense
Raises my confidence
But without you here to hold
My body lies vulnerable and cold

Independence
Living on my own
Yet not feeling all alone
Not feeling overwhelm
Got life by the helm
Never thought I'd see
This strength within me
Generally feeling that life is good
Feeling like I'm doing the best I should
But failure still constantly bringing in doubt
That's why your love is something I never go without

Poetry Post 325

Striving Relationship
For all that you are and all I can be
You're the best thing to ever happen to me
For all that I can strive fore
I could deserve nothing more
Than the intimacy of your emotion
And the intimacy of your devotion
But the intimacy of your touch
Would be asking too much
For a woman made pure
To a man so unsure

Love's Responsibilty
Think about the lonely think about the needy
And sometimes maybe give a thought about me
I may not be desperate or despondent
But everyone needs a correspondent
Friendship is a must not merely a wish
So asking for someone is not quite being so selfish
Just because we are not of immediate relation
Does not mean our love has no obligation
I know about love and accept the responsibility
True love can never dissever the reprocity
But if the love isn't true
Let me know how to move on from you

Thinking Of You
Late at night with nothing to do
Just sitting here thinking of you
Thinking of what could have been done what should have been done
Analyzing my chances of you being the one
But there's not that much to go on
When people seem to be here just waiting to be gone
Could see you this morning maybe tomorrow
Maybe for the last time ever I can never know
If not for the promise of your call
I'd have no confidence of seeing you at all
What can be done what can I do
to make sure I have more than just memories of you