working on new screenplay

it's about an autistic white college man looking for a girlfriend and falling in love with a black single mother college student. it works around how social awkwardness can sabotage good relationships that have strong common ground

Poetry Post 326

Heart Of Lust
I am selfish not one to trust
Deceived by my heart of lust
Don't trust me when I say I love you
I can't even tell you if it's true
And when their love is in doubt
It's just someone to do without

Sensual Warming
The warmth of your touch
Reminds me of how I miss you so much
The scent of your hair
Let's me know that I'm there
But I'm still caught by surprise
By the earnest love in your eyes
Your words of support take root deepened by your sincerity
Until your lips become the home I always needed them to be
Taking you in by every sense
Raises my confidence
But without you here to hold
My body lies vulnerable and cold

Independence
Living on my own
Yet not feeling all alone
Not feeling overwhelm
Got life by the helm
Never thought I'd see
This strength within me
Generally feeling that life is good
Feeling like I'm doing the best I should
But failure still constantly bringing in doubt
That's why your love is something I never go without

Poetry Post 325

Striving Relationship
For all that you are and all I can be
You're the best thing to ever happen to me
For all that I can strive fore
I could deserve nothing more
Than the intimacy of your emotion
And the intimacy of your devotion
But the intimacy of your touch
Would be asking too much
For a woman made pure
To a man so unsure

Love's Responsibilty
Think about the lonely think about the needy
And sometimes maybe give a thought about me
I may not be desperate or despondent
But everyone needs a correspondent
Friendship is a must not merely a wish
So asking for someone is not quite being so selfish
Just because we are not of immediate relation
Does not mean our love has no obligation
I know about love and accept the responsibility
True love can never dissever the reprocity
But if the love isn't true
Let me know how to move on from you

Thinking Of You
Late at night with nothing to do
Just sitting here thinking of you
Thinking of what could have been done what should have been done
Analyzing my chances of you being the one
But there's not that much to go on
When people seem to be here just waiting to be gone
Could see you this morning maybe tomorrow
Maybe for the last time ever I can never know
If not for the promise of your call
I'd have no confidence of seeing you at all
What can be done what can I do
to make sure I have more than just memories of you

Poetry Post 324 (First from the Wright State years)

Million Miles Away
When I'm lucky to see you once a day
Your love can feel a million miles away
When hello is all we have time to say
Your love can feel a million miles away
And when things just aren't alright
I pray your love will come as fast as light
And when my strength can't seem to bear the fight
I pray your love will come as fast as light

Sensory Security
Warmed by the embrace of your sound
I feel secure with you around
Captured in your body and your soul
I feel safe in your control
Rustic nature is all I see
Whenever you're with me
Symphonic voices is all I hear
Whenever you come near
To have so much is like paradise
The limits of time seem the only sacrifice

Compassionately Rewarded
Hindered by my own reservation
I timidly attempt a conversation
Topics died and shifted looking for a way to start
But in reaching for your mind I touched your heart
We spoke of love wanted and love needed and the need for something more
Thoughts and emotions started flowing from within and then started to outpour
And in talking of pain hoping for sympathy
We were rewarded with each other's empathy

Movie Idea Ms. Oedipus

Genre: Dramatic Comedy
Characters :
Robby Burns: 15 year old boy going through a messy divorce
Mr. Burns: 40 year old divorcee trying to be a parent and single again
Ms. Bancoft: 27 year old teacher who is the object of affection to both Robby and Mr. Burns
Dr. Sherman: child psychologist
Plot: A lonely teenage boy (Robby Burns) gets a crush on his supportive and friendly 9th grade English teacher (Ms. Bancoft). After he gets in trouble acting out in class due to bullying and because of his parents recent separation finalized in a divorce his father goes to have a parent teacher conference and Mr. Burns and Ms. Bancoft end up dating causing more rebeliion in ever increasingly reclusive disruptive Robby as he tries to sabotage his father's relationship with Ms. Bancoft so he could have her to himself.
Scene 1: Robby comes to school frustrated and picked on but finds support in Ms. Bancoft who encourages his writing
Scene 2: Coming home takes unusually solemn turn as his parents come back from marriage counselling with a disparing sense of something inevitably miserable.
Scene 3: Ms. Bancoft becomes more a maternal figure in Robby's life even learning what his interests in film, music and sports are
Scene 4: Divorce is finalized and he stays with his Dad as his emotionally detached mother runs off in search of freedom.
Scene 5: More bullying at school, more empathetic conversations between Ms. Bancoft and Robby of each one mutually opening up to the other more and more each time, including Ms. Bancoft's miseries in trying to find nice men who resembled bullies all grown up.
Scene 6: Fantasy dream sequence of Robby being Ms. Bancoft's knight in shining armor and her being the nurturing caregiver he needs. Imagines living in a nice apartment laying naked under the sheets talking romantically while watching their favorite romantic movie "Manhattan"
Scene 7: Fights between him and his Dad break out as his Dad is not accostumed to getting things prepared for Robby (like dinner, shopping etc)
Scene 8: Kids harass Robby in English class Ms. Bancoft tries to handle the kids but they don't relent until Robby fights back
Scene 9: Parent teacher conference ends unable to avoid 3 day suspension pushed by other kids parents
Scene 10: Apologies from Ms. Bancoft lead to a date with Mr. Burns
Scene 11: Ms. Bancoft accidently mentions the date to Robby and she notices Robby seems bothered
Scene 12: Robby comes home in a fighting mood with his Dad "if you had treated Mom better I would have to compete with you in the first place" gets him grounded
Scene 13: Tries to sabotage the date by stealing his Dad's credit card
Scene 14: The date goes on until Ms. Bancoft pays for the meal soon after realizing his credit card was missing.
Scene 15: Aggrevation goes on as he has no one to confine in, school becomes even more difficult and his grades drop
Scene 16: Another parent teacher conference leading to the next date as she gives Mr. Burns another try after he explains things
Scene 17: Robby maxes out his father's credit card online with internet pornography (memorizing his credit card #)
Scene 18: By the time the check comes after dinner his credit card is voided and Ms. Bancoft pays for the date again
Scene 19: Serious talk between Ms. Bancoft and Mr. Burns leading to the decision they shouldn't date because it's clearly affecting Robby's behavior too much.
Scene 20: Fight at home between Robby and his Dad
Scene 21: Robby asks Ms. Bancoft if he could stay with her as he and his dad are not on good terms, but Ms. Bancoft tries to politely decline
Scene 22: Mr. Burns gets Robby a counselor which his father hopes Robby will transfer his Oedipal crush on until he finds out Dr. Sherman is a guy
Scene 23: Mr. Burns talks with Dr. Sherman about his predicament with his son and Dr. Sherman suggests open family counselling which Mr. Burns begrudgingly accepts
Scene 24: At their first session Robby learns his dad's real motives on getting a psychologist. This intensifies the hostility.
Scene 25: Robby confines in Ms. Bancoft (who they are still on good if not weakened terms) what his father had done and she is upset.
Scene 26: The father apologizes for not being upfront and honest and trying sympathetically handling Robby's emotional drama
Scene 27: Robby and his father discuss which of them should more practically go after Ms. Bancoft. Father relents that in 3 years it wouldn't make a difference if Robby was dating her and even in college he could feasable afford marriage with his scholarship opportunities and part time jobs if Robby was willing to sacrifice.
Scene 28: Robby never gets the nerve to tell Ms. Bancoft he is willing to wait for her until he graduates and hear she is engaged to another man.
Scene 29: Mr. Burns consoles his son by taking him to dinner where he arranges a double date for him and his son to date Ms. Moore (35) and her daughter Liza (17)

Poetry Post 323

Regressed Goals
Ambitions long forgotten
Left on pages old and rotten
Goals saved for another season
Priorities without rhyme or reason
Simply following the roads straight ahead
Not for want or desire but as obligation led
Only to front a stonewall barrier
Finding in retreat regression even scarier
Regressing to the start to look again forward
To search and find again the goals I was working toward

Moss Of A Mountain's Stone
Living in the worse sense of being alone
Stuck like moss growing fat on a mountain's stone
Nowhere to go but down into the abyss
I can do nothing but just take living like this
But sometimes I can't even do that
Wondering how on Earth I got where I'm at
Hoping erosion doesn't cut off my life support
As the stones wears down slowly into dirt

Moral Equilibrium
Greater good, lesser evil
Battle of one's own free will
Blame it on nature or put it on nurture
The feeling so helpless is the greatest torture
Trying to find balance on an endless horizon
Never finding anything stable to lean on
Pride is a question of sin and virtue
Depending on someone else's point of view
Does the middle road lie on a paradox
And would someone please remove the road blocks

Poetry Post 322

Facebook Friends
Virtual relations are playing with my imagination
Your instant messages are instant gratification
It's like everything and still so much less
How much love is felt is merely a guess
Trying to read the lines between the emoticons acronyms
Measuring all the words by connotations and synonyms
We see each other online to chat
But what are we really getting at
Trying to analysis each one's point of view
Contemplating what next we should do
There's so much to try to comprehend
When you're looking for a lover in a friend

Parasite Lost
Your departure was my liberation
Because your company was degeneration
Killing my hopes until they were maggot rotten
But resurrected once thoughts of you are forgotten
No longer to fear your manipulation
Nor to fuel your ego with my exasperation
Now you're just another parasite without a host
And even if the pain lingers you're just a ghost
Untangible to my world free of your curse
I only pity who will be your next resource

Love's Word Puzzles
I want you to feel the love you make me feel
But I can't because it probably isn't real
It's hard to measure the extent of an intention
When cloaks of manners and filters are in the words mention
The difference of how the words are implied
Make the difference of how love is applied
So to play it safe I assume nothing more was meant
But what was safe about all the lonely days spent